the words hurt
they hurt more than a knife in my chest
i look around
there is no one but my refletion in the mirror
and it is laughing like the rest
they say im too fat
im not good looking
no one even cares that i try so hard
i want to fit in
but societiy doesnt care
im just another freak
im the guy with tattoos and wierd hair
that they just sit and stare
"why does he do that"
they say
they dont know though
all i want is someone to understand
i want someone to feel the way i do
i want to have someone that is there for me
but they just sit and sneer
so i just dissappear
tell me please
is this how its supposed to be
is this the life
that was meant for me
i don't understand
what is happening
everything's going so fast
its all a blur
my life seems so absurd
am i meant to be here
looking around
i feel so out of place
everyday gets harder and harder to face
so tell me please
is this how its supposed to be
im slowly falling
into something
i have never known before
this feeling in my chest
is almost unbearable
these butterflies
are going crazy
every time i see her
my heart leaps
and i cant help but smile
it feels so right
having her by my side
im just a fool
listening to my mind
and ignoring my heart
i should have never
taken her back
i should have known
from the start
that she would
tear out my heart
and rip it apart
her words stabbed my chest
with the dullest blade
now here i lay
hating the day
that she left
and walked away
all i can think about
is you
you on my mind
every waking moment
and in my every dream
you are the heat of my heart
the breath of my lungs
and the warmth of my skin
i can not explain
what i feel for you
but whatever it is
i know its true
the words hurt
they hurt more than a knife in my chest
i look around
there is no one but my refletion in the mirror
and it is laughing like the rest
they say im too fat
im not good looking
no one even cares that i try so hard
i want to fit in
but societiy doesnt care
im just another freak
im the guy with tattoos and wierd hair
that they just sit and stare
"why does he do that"
they say
they dont know though
all i want is someone to understand
i want someone to feel the way i do
i want to have someone that is there for me
but they just sit and sneer
so i just dissappear
tell me please
is this how its supposed to be
is this the life
that was meant for me
i don't understand
what is happening
everything's going so fast
its all a blur
my life seems so absurd
am i meant to be here
looking around
i feel so out of place
everyday gets harder and harder to face
so tell me please
is this how its supposed to be
im slowly falling
into something
i have never known before
this feeling in my chest
is almost unbearable
these butterflies
are going crazy
every time i see her
my heart leaps
and i cant help but smile
it feels so right
having her by my side
im just a fool
listening to my mind
and ignoring my heart
i should have never
taken her back
i should have known
from the start
that she would
tear out my heart
and rip it apart
her words stabbed my chest
with the dullest blade
now here i lay
hating the day
that she left
and walked away
Current Residence: Oklahoma Favourite genre of music: ALL!!! Favourite style of art: Absract Operating System: PC MP3 player of choice: iPod Touch Shell of choice: Red Wallpaper of choice: The Lake Skin of choice: None Favourite cartoon character: Tom & Jerry Personal Quote: "Love Is Impossibly Simple, It Is Horribly Wonderful...."
Favourite Visual Artist
Van Gough
Favourite Movies
Labrynth
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
Slipknot (rock) Kenny Rodgers (country) Lil Wayne (rap)
So i need to update this.... so ive been out of the military since august got discharged for some bull, so im back in oklahoma now with no friends or anything....
well people its been awhile hasnt it? well im sitting here at the hotel ready to go to MEPS (Military Entrance Proccesing.. or something like like) tomarrow... im joining the Army, Hooah... im going to be a Geo-spatial Intelligence Imagery Analyst... basicly working with maps all day every day.... i ship off to Ft. Jackson, South Carolina July 10th 2012.
Love yall.... TTYL
Hey everyone... Well to start with I'm sick bleh... School peeps I miss y'all and I might be back wednesday... Thts talking to basically Roxxi and stewert :P this sick shit sucks cuz when I get a cold it's BAD cuz it mixes in with my broncites which I have my family genes to thank for DX I went to the dr this morning and i now have to have an inhaler and I'm taking antibiotics and a prescription cold syrup which is AMAZING!! So yea we left my house at 11 this morning (I felt like crap) I fell asleep before we even got from my house to the town I go to school in and slept all the way to the near town tht begins with a J (not using real town n